A few weeks ago I ran and finished my 2nd Chicago Marathon. I ran it 4 minutes faster than the first one. While that sounds like a lot of time for an elite athlete to make up, it was not that much time for the speed I run. I actually thought I was doing better than I was actually doing and when I saw my time, I felt a moment of disappointment. Then I stepped back and looked at the whole picture.
I ended much stronger than I did last year. I ran almost the entire way and I started out with heavy legs and actually thinking I may not finish. The fact that somewhere along the course I found a renewed determination and worked through the physical and mental setbacks for a more consistent and steady run makes me very happy and fulfilled.
This year I was aware of my surroundings the entire time. I remember where I was at and what I was thinking along the way. I was present and in the moment the whole time. I fueled better this year which gave me consistent energy. I realize that this was my goal: to maintain consistent energy throughout. While running faster may satisfy my ego more, running consistently and having something left at the end felt authentic and necessary for me. The other truth is I didn’t train to run it fast and if that had been my goal, then I definitely need to do things differently.
As always, I have gained more in my life since I began running and this year was no exception. I’ve been focused all year on being more balanced and steady: consistently following through on actions, commitments, and the things I want. I’ve changed my metrics to be more in line with my values and that has also made a difference. I made a few big decisions, dealt with a few surprises, and worked through the physical and mental setbacks more easily than before. By reflecting back to where I was at when I started running 7 years ago, or even further back to when I did my coaches training, I can definitely see progress and that is what keeps me in the game.
I don’t know if I’ll run another marathon. It’s funny hanging around people who like to run normalizes the experience. I would like to run in another city and while marathons are good tests of stamina and endurance, I’m not sure it’s the distance I want to continue with. I am aware that my body may need for me to shorten the running distance especially if I want to go greater distances in other areas of my life. As I reflect on that thought, I invite you to reflect on your own distances whether it’s about looking back at your progress or mapping out where you want to go. What’s next? What metrics are you using to measure your growth? Do they align with your values?
I’ve been privileged in my life to meet so many amazing people who have shared their stories, both heartbreaking and beautiful. Like fueling during a race, these stories of survival, triumph, and overcoming act as fuel for me. I am humbled and energized by each and every one. On the course, or in a classroom, or even on an airplane, there are opportunities everywhere to connect. Pay attention and notice and allow others to help you in your reflection. In the meantime, I’m enjoying a little less running for the moment. What’s next? I’ll let you know.